Feb. 16, 2023

When It's Over, it's Over

When It's Over, it's Over

I'm leaving you now. 

I have awakened to your ways. 

You never had my best interest, but I badly wanted to believe you did. 

We have been together for so long. 

Since I was a child, you told me things that were not true. 

You schooled and groomed me into the person you wanted me to be. 

Everything you said to me was a lie. 

Stories. 

Well, the stories and realities of life are two different things. 

Life doesn't care about what's in my mind or your stories. 

Life doesn't care about you, Mr. Ego. 

I'm tired of living in fear and pain.

I'm tired of not knowing the person God intended me to be. 

I'm moving on into the real world, out of my mind and into my heart. 

Reality is where God wants me. 

He wants me to be present in the here and now. 

He doesn't want me in the fantasy land of the past or the future. 

Whatever comes my way, He has given me the strength to deal with it. 

It's okay to feel and cry. 

It's okay to be human. 

Yes, I must start over now, and that's okay. 

The journey to my true self wasn't easy, but it was well worth it. 

When it's over, it's over. 

I'm home now. 

I'm free. 

Freedom

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